The Issue of Being Serious.

Sometime at the end of last year I began to blog in a different voice. I slashed most of the tiresome metaphors and started to use efficient words (i.e. instead of saying "my insides are preparing for bloody baby making" I now say something more like "I have my period"). While my heart aches to continue my excessive syntax, I realised I started to concentrate more on the way I like to talk rather than what I would like to talk about. That's an important distinction. Now admittedly, my tone of voice sounds a lot more serious which to many, carries negative shadowings. Today I was told - "You look so serious, it makes me worry", to which I replied "Why is serious a bad thing?". (But anyway that could've just been cause I was reading about the psychology of suicidal notes Clicky Click if you happen to be curious too.) I get that being serious can relate to sadness and anger and other things that make the boots heavy but how can you extend upon conversations without a level of seriousness? It took me pretty long to realise I was overusing adjectives and metaphors in the same way people do with humour. 

I'm uncomfortable - Ha!
I don't know how to talk to you - Ha!
That was racist/sexist/ageist/offensive etc. - Ha!  
I'm unsure of what just happened/is happening - Ha!
I can't even describe my own thoughts, ideas or feelings - Ha!
I really have no idea who you are or for that matter, who I am - Ha! 

Basically, a lot of 'Let's talk about things without actually talking about them so that we remain sure of ourselves by being ambiguous and seemingly knowledgable! I realised it came down to vulnerability and that inevitable insecurity we wish wouldn't transcend our screens into the virtual public sphere. It was a subconscious decision to halt getting lost in translating my internal thought to external expression. While this new change understands the idea that [serious = boring], I think personally, being more serious has extended a whole new space for interest. I enjoy doing things seriously, from reading peer reviewed articles daily (not really a part of the nerd trend but plainly curious enough to get educated) to enjoying classical music to having serious conversations about serious issues that impact on a larger scale than me and/or my friends/family to listening to slam poems to of course, writing serious blogs. 

Oxford dictionary says:

Serious


1. Demanding or characterized by careful consideration or application  
2. Acting or speaking sincerely and in earnest, rather than in a joking or half-hearted manner
3. Significant or worrying because of possible danger or risk; not slight or negligible
4. Substantial in terms of size, number, or quality

To me, it seems most of the things I do that are serious entail a quietness, sometimes literally but mostly metaphorical (for the opportunity to think), and that's something I've really come to appreciate. 

Anyway, I am off to manufacture Z's. Night, y'all.