My Optimism.

People like to question whether we are who we are, or who we want to be. While I mostly argue it's who you are right in this moment, I can't help but credit that some will extend and struggle their being into exactly who they want to be. But when I say some, I'm indicating a ratio of about 1/10000000. People will lose a so called 'childishness' and stop dreaming, they will see mountains rising in their path and they will squeeze their minds into understanding a new desire; to reside at the foot of the mountain. Safe in a shadow of their own creation. But do you see, the person you are now is that person you foresee as yourself? You have the opportunities just not the perseverance. You must will your mind, and then everything becomes yours.

Since the moment you made your first conscious decision, your life has been YOURS. Every action and word you take is your doing. You are the way you have been, are being, and will be, because of your ability to choose. We are entirely responsible for ourselves. There are no excuses; you don't "have to" do anything, or conform to expectations of any nature. All you have is to sink into this beautiful understanding and feel the liberation I feel. I am free, you see. Finally settling into my mind, creating jagged metal hurdles to toss myself over. Bleeding and pained, I am drowned in pleasure for it. Losing exactly the remnants of a blindness that swallowed me whole. I am now at peace because I can feel myself tumbling in a straight line towards truth.

You should know, you should realise. You cannot know a person without knowing their beliefs. You cannot, because they are that person as a result of their beliefs, and just like how you cannot describe a story with no beginning, you cannot describe this person true to them. All you know will be facts and moments, that will inevitably realise as meaningless without a purpose. I often talk about people with others and we will say things like how X is like that simply because X is X, but that's not true. X cannot be excused of our need to re-understand X just because it is much easier to lean on the knowledge we already have. X is X because they chose to be X. And that is the reason you shall take to understand why I grew such a hatred of people, because I gave them no excuses, because they are so blind, because they give more of their time to alcohol and gossip and buying shit, than they give to themselves. It takes time, and suffering persistence, after all, what is more important than learning how you want to live your life? We are born with minds that allow possibilities only imaginable to me now. So stop wasting time, run, run, run.